水瓶帖

开心就像

在Kenny Roger’s Roaster吃两个的套餐只需付一杯饮料的钱

在window shopping时无意间发现有大减价，还买了自己喜欢的衣服

逛完街后看部精彩的鬼片把你身边的女伴吓得捉住你的手臂让你来保护她

送她回家后她发个短讯跟你说她今晚过得很愉快

开心就是如此简单

我喜欢这种感觉

This is the fourth day I sitting in front of the highly-radioactive monitor in my office. I opened the training manuals, and at the same time looking into the blanks. Almost felt asleep a couple of times. Phew… luckily no one has caught me.

Finally, today I learnt something new. It is called card activation. We are taught to use a propriatory software called Card Maker to update the database with new Prepaid Card IDs. You are so kind to teach us, Koh. Thanks! Other than that, everything is still the same for the past 3 days. Reading, chatting and web-browsing.

One strange thing I found is that this company seems to have a lot of personal issues going on. The admins seems so dislike with the engineers. I was so surprised, as my boss told me once during the interview “Our company personels are very helpful. There are no office politics.” Maybe my colleagues are too well in disguising or my boss is just too busy to bother. Are the admins are trying to brainwash us, the newbies? Fuh, I don’t really interested in participating in their personal grudge. At least, don’t drag me into one.

Work work…I need work. I want to learn something. But, my fellow senior engineer, please don’t be too harsh on us.

Here again in front of Qian blogging again. Fuh, finally finish my first day. Slow day I had today with all the reading activities going on. The company is using some Clarent products. Too bad it isn’t using any Cisco product. If it is, it would be easier for me since I had been taking CCNA course for the past three weeks. Well, it is also good to have some lazy time before getting into serious business. My instinct tells me that this “leisure” will not last too long.

Manage to know a few interesting people here. And, most of them are from admin and account department. Too bad, engineering department is so serious. Maybe because we are new to the environment.

My brother introduces me to a friend of his who are opening a tuition center. She asks me to help her with the tuition classes. I am planning to take it since earning money is part of my goal now. However, at the same time I feel guilty as I may not have so much time to accompany my girlfriend in the future. Sorry, hope she will understand. I promised I won’t neglect her. We will still having our “pakto” day. Anyway, it is still under negotiation. I might or might not take it depends on the offer she made.

And, congratulation to kiat as he is now employed by IBM. Wow, big company. Don’t forget to belanja me big one ya. Haha.

Here I am in front of Qian’s laptop trying to jot down every thoughts that I have. Tomorrow will be my first day as an junior engineer. Shoot, I can feel the butterflies in my stomach right now. So nervous that I keep on feeling to pee. Haha. This is crazy!

Currently I am still looking for a room to rent somewhere around my workplace. But the rental I encountered so far is really beyond my capability. Average rm 350 for a small room, man. But last night I got new recommendation from Chee Kaw. He say his sister rent a cheap but comfortable room in Taman Megah, which is 15 - 20 mins drive from my office. Thanks, ck. Later, maybe after my lunch I will go to survey.

Looking out at the window, the sun is bright and hot. Kinda lazy. “No No No!” Suddenly the voice of my conscience strucked me. I recalled I made a promise to myself yesterday. I can’t be lazy. Hopefully later I can have some good luck.

I have a wonderful dinner with ck last night. It was great to talk so much with him since our HK trip last month. He is now working in ZTE and been very busy recently. He is optimistic that we will have a salary of 3.5k after 3 years of working experience. I doubt it. But if it is true, this is sure a heart-brightening news to me. Perhaps, 5 years promise isn’t so hard to realize after all. Hehe.

Oh, it is almost my lunch time. I better go knock on Xiang Si’s door. He seems still laying in his bed. I hope tommorrow will be a brighter (I don’t to be so hot) smoother day.

今天我比闹钟还早醒。想赖床一下，闭上眼睛。“诶，怎么睡不着？”。没法咯，只好起身刷个牙。昨晚没刷牙就睡了。打开电脑，才上网，siongkiat就在msn上跟我道早安。奇怪，怎么跟我道早安的朋友还蛮多的。原来，一起身就玩fb的人还蛮多的。

一起身，肚子粉饿的。昨晚的两包快熟面发挥不了作用。在想等下要吃什么，还是问问祥熙的意见啦。我女朋友特地交代要带他出去吃。祥熙大概会说“随便。” 现在滚来滚去，饿得打滚。戏剧化一下，哈哈哈。

一早起来，心情不是很靓。Down down地。“今天要做什么呢？”想到这里，心情就糟糕了起来。”Emo “是我常用的字眼。从我一些马六甲朋友身上学来的。他们说话特别有趣的。还好，有几个朋友陪我网聊。Jecii跟我分享了来KL旅行的经验。Joyce呢最近迷上playfish的游戏。她一起身就玩pet society罕restaurant city，真的服了她。发现我们还蛮聊得来的。“aquarius and libra are matched in characteristic”她说。有点惊讶，我是没什么研究星座的。我只知道水瓶和狮子大概的性格而已。水瓶和libra都是风向星座的关系吧。对了！我需要的diversion，分散我的注意力。

下午约了Dylan喝下午茶。Fuh，最近超穷的。和朋友出去都是用钱。但是没关系啦，他是我的老友兼兄弟。见到他我还蛮开心的。昨天就和他一起出去一整天。如果现在跟他可以打篮球，那该多好。这次之后应该就只有新年可以见到了吧。长大了，很多事都是不能如你所愿那样了。每个人都会被社会的框框限制着 。保持联络，那已足够了。

过两天开工了，既兴奋有紧张。我的人生会有什么发展呢？尽情期待。。。

今天开始

我就得把我电脑收拾起来

这几天

可能就要和外界断去联系了

朋友们

再见了

直到我找到新家稳定下来

我会再次重闯江湖

还有女朋友。。。

“我爱你！”

这一篇我要献给那些关心我爱我的人

谢谢你们一直地照顾我，提点我

虽然有时我会嫌你们烦

但是你们还是一样不离不弃地在保护我

让我慢慢地在自己的生命里长大

至于那些讨厌我的

我也祝福你们可以拥有成功的未来

对不起可能我做了一些伤害你们的事

但我想说

你们也一样做了伤害我的事

过了就过了

现在只要开心就好

记得以前最怕就是的就是写作文。篇篇作文都有基本字数要求，大多是上百以上。我常常都不知道要写些什么。后来我遇到一位老师，他教我要写一篇长篇阔论的作文，最重要的是对细节的描述。所以，现在就养成现在我讲话比较拖。

她，和我不同，常常都是说话直达重点，从不加什么修饰。这并不是问题。只是有时，和她谈天需要想一连串的问题才能知道事情的细节。曾经问过她，为什么讲话都那么简短。她说那事情没什么好聊的，所以“普普通通就酱咯”。

就像昨天和她一群朋友去吃早餐，如果她朋友没问她回太平的事，我都不知道她会和他们一起回去太平玩。我搞不懂为什么身为她男朋友的我，既然要从她朋友口中得知这些事。虽然这只是小事，但是可以当作我们的饭后话题啊。

她其实不像没话题的女生，至少在朋友之中，她都是那个会加入话题的人。有时，跟我在一起，她却真的很静。“她累了吧”我告诉自己。或许这才是真实的她吧。 但是我还是希望她能多话点，尽量和我分享她的事，这样我会很开心的哦。

暗恋的感觉是甜甜的，涩涩的。那种感觉很特别，和真正恋爱的感觉不同。它难以捉摸，因为你从来不会去想结果，你只会活在自己的幻想中。想像有一天你和她会怎样怎样。甚至和她结婚生活的幻想都会在脑海里run一遍。她对你做一些小事，比如跟你借个胶擦，你都会很开心。

讲起暗恋，历史最早的应该是我小学一年级吧。我是个早熟的小孩，很懂事的那种，可没喝DHA哦。呵呵。那时我们上课都会坐在板凳上。我身边就坐了两个女生，我都跟她们很要好一下。我依稀记得那时其中一位有一次哭了，我既然在旁边安慰她。想起来，原来我这么小就已经是这么温柔的男生（顺便称赞一下）。我爸还是常逗我说，要不要帮忙我说一下。其实他不懂我对另一个比较有好感。

到了三年级，我才真正意识到我是在暗恋她。现在我也搞不懂喜欢她什么。只知道那时的我觉得她很漂亮很有气质，而且家境很富有。就这样我暗恋她到五年级。那一年，她被分配坐在我隔壁。开心死我了，你知道吗，回到家里我跟爸爸妈妈讲。爸妈还讲我人小鬼大。

那一年，她爸爸参选诗巫市长。我哥和我爸知道我喜欢这位女生，所以特地整我说她爸是不会当选的。那时只有十一岁的我极力地捍卫她爸爸。但是最后还是敌不过哥哥和爸爸两人，我心急既然哭了起来。想起来，我那时好幼稚哦。之后，她爸爸还真的没当上。真无奈。

过后，我爸升职转去另一间小学。所以我也得跟着转过去。当时我多么不舍得，要放弃一群朋友到一个陌生的新环境 。升上中学之后我渐渐地淡忘她，毕竟没见面了。听说她六年级毕业后，就出国留学了。大概现在是个ABC了。还单身吗？这我还蛮想知道的。:)

好久没唱k了。昨天萌起了去唱k的念头，就提议kiat去唱lunch k。但是结果没去到，因为他以为我是在开完笑的。他其实不知道，我是多么的认真。

上星期，我也和小倩说好这个星期等她下班了一起去。但是，她因为我一句“最近我声音好像变差了”，就把dot red卡和一些固本送给她朋友，完全没跟我商量。一点点失望。没和她说，毕竟那也只是件小事。

现在只好在房间里大开杀戒，开着千千静听，一边对歌词，一边唱着。发现声音已恢复正常了。呵呵。

“爱情其实要像一种投资，分散投资才是明智之举”，一个男生朋友说道。我赞成他的意见，但是为什么听起来它却是特别刺耳？爱情难道需要这样理智吗？理智的爱情会快乐吗？

“屁！”我才不削这种被人理智化的爱情。对于水瓶的我来说，一生人有几次的恋爱可以谈得轰轰烈烈的。既然现在有一个爱的人，就该放手一搏让这段的爱情尽可精彩。我不想后悔。加上，分散投资不就意味着你在拥有这位情人的当儿，心里在想着第二甚至第三个可能性。

“Fuck！ ”我心里骂道。虽然理智上我会站在他那边，但是认为爱情是他一大部分的我是完全地不赞同。而我鄙视你！

今天我不想做平时的自己

今天Gallen将取代BenYan

今天要开心！

今天要rock!

今天要不一样 ！